We will all be forgotten

I have a real fear of Dad being forgotten.  That is something I just can't bear.  Yet, when I really think about it, I know we will all be forgotten one day.   The Bible tells us not to love this world because this world is not our home; we are merely passing through.  I know my dad sojourned for almost 94 years, but he is home now, more alive than he ever was here on earth.  That does not mitigate my pain, though.  In time, people will forget him.  In time, those who knew him will pass away, too. There will be no one left to remember him.  But,  he will always be part of every day I tread here on this earth.  I will never forget him. 

Grief and Depression Come in Waves

In the three weeks since Dad died, I have been schooled in grief and the depression that is its Siamese twin.  Grief comes in waves.  I can think I am okay, and in the next moment, I have burst into tears and want to retreat to my bed.  Like this morning....I was washing dishes, looking at the cars backed up outside my window.  Suddenly, I burst into tears with the overpowering feeling of missing Dad.  He was a huge part of my life, all my life.  Certainly, in the last three years since I brought him to my home on June 6, 2019, he was my whole life.  So, here I sit chronicling a vignette about the waves of grief.  It is a way of remembering Dad, a way of honoring him.   #grief   #mourning  #dad

Dad's Obituary

https://www.briceherndonfuneralhome.com/obituary/HollandR-Williams

 Some people said I should have kept a log of caring for my dad all these years.  It was too painful to relive those days; dementia sucks.  Today, three years, four months, and 23 days after coming to live with me, Dad drew his last breath at 8:25 am, right in front of me.  He had been under hospice care in my home since July 28.  Now, he is in the presence of God and Jesus and reunited with family and friends.  Me?  I don't know what I will do with my life now.  He WAS my life for those 3 years, 4 months, and 23 days.